Private Disgrace
Shame sleeps behind the barbed wire of self recrimination.
Sleeping forever is closest to heaven. A blot of error.
Fallen expectations hold him by his very breath.
He is tempted to throw very air away before some hunger starts again.
Some pulse of desire, dependably lurks, even in his bed,
not empty, because he is still in it. Even the end may not bring relief.
Even in heaven God might say, we expected more from you, now go try to make some angel happy.